I must admit that we are so attached with the places we live in, either it be a very remote place in the middle of jungle or the city with luxuries. You are so dipped into the sorrow and the happiness that the place suffer, be it earthquake, flood or any other disaster. Nevertheless, I am so shaken by all the circumstances that the places suffer and at times its equally rejuvenating and pleasant place to be in. Thakurdwara and its pheriphery is just beyond words, the people in the narrow lane is walking with ambition,hopes,dreams ,some looks so rushing,some just with smiley faces and some in their own way.Moreover the National park residing in the heart of Thakurdwara is something which really enthrall  lots of soul form every nook and corner of the world.

Major Missing

Life is not about achieving the great  things,but what I have learned is what make you really happy and satisfied matter most. Bhurigaun the place where I spend almost 11 months is not so enthralling at the first glance but when it comes to the work that I have done and the people of places are really so innocent and engraved in my heart. Sometimes we bounce back to the memories we made, either it would be a curshing or the blessing they will never fade for ages.

I so miss the walking track to Chittal pokhari and the group of chital in the periphery,   defending sound of the monkey, rushing wild boar and the hiding golden jackel when encountered.I miss those trackless walk into the woods leading nowhere and sometimes being lost in the dense forest, walking for hours to get water to drink and many more. How much curious we used to be trying to identify the pugmarks, scat,fecal matter and any other marks into the jungle and guessing what could be either it’s a big mammal or might be it small.The scary sound(breaking the branches of tree) in the midnight by the elephant near the quarter and witnessing their activities from the roof and the joy is ineffable.

The saddened feeling giving funeral to the dead animals in the road accident, finding the chital trapped in the ambush by the poacher and sometimes dead animal in the canal. Not only for animal equally heartbreaking for human making homeless by the elephant and loosing their loved ones every year.

Fire Fighter

The national park effort in controlling forest fire is really the appreciable work that has been done by the joint efforts of the armed force end the park staff during the peak season. The tireless effort for the month long being the fire fighter carrying the waterbag and the bunch of branch making the fireline as a control measure has been the common way to response the forest fire.Sitting in the nook and watching the row of the fire fighter and their works really makes you heartwhelming.What I most loved being in park is the team work and the unity in every single works.

Seasonal Conflict

Yes, we can proudly say that we are rich in biodiversity, but managing them in their own natural habitat is the challenging task for we conservationist. Many of us spend lots of money and time just to witness them in their wild state, but the people who are residing nearby the park never want to see them again. I am always amazed by the animal behavior that’s goes on changing with the changing pattern of people to chase them off. The season generally refers to the crop harvesting season when the entrance of animals mainly elephant, wild boar, Nilgai are the frequent  in the agricultural crops. Like us animal can feel the love, joy, fear and pain but the only thing is they cannot grasp the spoken word.

The gang

Most of the times the one tusk elephant with few other in his gang has been appeared within the whole buffer zone area. Some day they are observed in karmala and the nexy day they might appear in balati, the another day in hattisar.आज त एक दाह्रे हाती हातीसार मा देखियो रे, ओहो अस्ति त मोतिपुर मा आको थियो त​; धान सब सखाप पर्यो मेरो त , the people gossips.One can understand that how depression is seeping inside the rural people by so called elephant and its daily appearance in their agricultural fields.I am so inspired by few of the people who have lost their family members,every year they faces the huge loss due to crop raiding,
still they want to conserve animals consoling others people in the neighborhood to think the same way.

Looking into the ceiling and deeped  with the myriads of thoughts and memories is what I love to cherish in my whole life.

Photo source: Google photos

Being a Park Ranger

You wake up in the early morning with the fresh breeze with the smell of forest and tight your shoe laces ,carry your backpack with GPS, Binocular, Camera and a Stick and walk into the woods. The feeling of joy when you came up with the sightings of diversity of animals , some jumping, some flying some with deadly looks and some feeling insecure being encountered. Yeah, you are with the uncontaminated pure oxygen, the panoramic  view of green belt in front of your eyes. Dipping yourself in the woods is like you are in quagmire were knowingly you won't try to get rid of. It's not about passion, dedication but its ends up as addiction.You are so connected with every trees, every forest routes and the creatures ranging  from the small insects to mega animals and obsessed about them.

I always ponder with expectation VS reality, when expectation and reality collide, expectation comes up with higher degree of shattering at the ground.What we think about the park ranger is something which is completely different (the hidden secret). You came up with different world like i became different me ,rediscovered being here.  The countless time i have failed,  i felt completely helpless, embarrassed, those failures, situation have inspired me tremendously and i am growing up.  You need to be a good dictator, actor(like you feel the problems of the rural people as yours own),runner(Like a marathon)good manager, good listener, commanding, spy, bold, logical ,honest and kind at the same time.Moreover park ranger is like protector, you are assigned to protect people ,land ,forest, animals and in turn whole environment.

 The experience of being park ranger is always powerful,it seemed to me that it had always felt like to be human in wild  and as long as the wild existed it would always feel this way.Its what you are trained to do even without thinking reflexive and unconditional act. Well, भावना डुम्रेनी क्षेत्र मा चित्तल लाई कुकुर ले लाखटेर गाउ पस्यो रे, rescue गर्नु पर्‍यो ,ohh i am moving please keep it safely, you are on the spot of rescue,bell rings and the sounds comes like  कर्माला क्षेत्रमा ठुले आगलागि भाको छ रे, टिम लिएर जानु पर्‍यो , yeah i am coming with team.At the midnight, म्याड्म हाती गाउँ पस्यो,हजुरहरु आउन पर्‍यो,alright we are moving right now please make sure every people is safe there. Likewise,  स्थानए मानिस हरु जंगल पसे ,ohh we will go for it, मध्यरात मा बसले चित्तल लाई ठक्कर दियो, आँखा मिच्दै ,आउदै छौ हामी and it goes on. There are times where you felt like you never going to be stopped ,going on and on.

At times you  felt heartbroken for the people who are compelled to enter the jungle for their subsistence livelihood and because of  hand to mouth problem and you act like, you dont possess any feeling, some people cursing continuously ,some threatens and some left unspoken. You don't have plan and don't you seek any work, whatever and whenever the works calls is unpredictable  and at the end you are like volatile. However, i  haven't noticed or even felt  that rushing brings what you aspire even if you are left half eaten.It had to do with how it felt to be in wild,with what it was like to walk for miles with no reason other than to witness the accumulation of trees, animals, meadows, river, streams sunrise and the sunset leaving the cold breeze and fine looks.
Sometimes its not easy to come out of dreams, sleep ends, dreams don't.
अल्झे कही त के भो ,बाटो भुलेको छैन
भाचिसकेको बिश्वास, फेरी भएर आउछ
हजार सपना हरुको ,माया लागेर आउछ
At the end of the day, you felt   privileged, honored being  park ranger and its you.

Ranger squad
Working is so much of fun when you are surrounded with the people where you can be real you .The ranger squad of Bardia National Park is super amazing group i have ever come up with .They have been so so supportive, energizer ,helpful, kind, mentoring  everything what comes. encouraging and at the same time  humorous. They do possess very different skills and are expert in their own way like photography,GIS, field coordination,research  and many more.And yes this group is certainly adding color to life and will always be cherished. The sounds comes like ,Ohh i feel exhausted,i need a break,well we can have some refreshment party, the voice from another. this is how  the squad chill. Yeah,Chillar ranger squad', what a perfect analogy to our group.

Don't Try

  Many of us might have  the same thought regarding the writing and some of them are passionate about it. Yeah writing is so much of fun, sharing and the coexistence of the love between  the memories and time. Time flies but the memory you write keep its fresh and alive every now and then.

I am always in dilemma that, how to start writing, every people might have feel that the flow of writing can continue up to few lines in voluntarily but then you need to think to put some words. Some wondering  thoughts about me is that, myriads of thoughts  produced in minds, especially when I don’t have pen to express it into white paper. But when it came to writing, its  different,there isn't  any bursting neither any production if you try without inspiration. Nevertheless, the first few line which comes naturally   are worth reading and the rest just occupy  space. Of course the whole writing doesn't come once either it would be a poem,a story ,article etc and we might have to wait long,think hard but what comes naturally is always beautiful and effective.Charles Bukowski poem is something which inspired tremendously,so that is the best advice you can give to a writer "Dont Try".

  SO YOU WANT TO BECOME A WRITER

                  Charles Bukowski

If it doesn’t come bursting out of you

in spite of everything,
don’t do it.

unless it comes unasked out of your

heart and your mind and your mouth

and your gut,

don’t do it.

if you have to sit for hours

staring at your computer screen

or hunched over your

typewriter

searching for words,

don’t do it.

if you’re doing it for money or

fame,

don’t do it.

if you’re doing it because you want

women in your bed,

don’t do it.

if you have to sit there and

rewrite it again and again,

don’t do it.

if it’s hard work just thinking about doing it,

don’t do it.

if you’re trying to write like somebody else,

forget about it.

if you have to wait for it to roar out of

you,

then wait patiently.

if it never does roar out of you,

do something else.

if you first have to read it to your wife

or your girlfriend or your boyfriend

or your parents or to anybody at all,

you’re not ready.

don’t be like so many writers,

don’t be like so many thousands of

people who call themselves writers,

don’t be dull and boring and

pretentious, don’t be consumed with self-love.

the libraries of the world have

yawned themselves to

sleep

over your kind.

don’t add to that.

don’t do it.

unless it comes out of

your soul like a rocket,

unless being still would

drive you to madness or

suicide or murder,

don’t do it.

unless the sun inside you is

burning your gut,

don’t do it.

when it is truly time,

and if you have been chosen,

it will do it by

itself and it will keep on doing it

until you die or it dies in you.

there is no other way.

and there never was.

"Don't Try" phrase has been engraved in stone in the name of Charles Buowski.

Master Piece (Moments)

Mission Wifi :

Truly speaking I am in touch with the WIFI only before two years, getting familiar with this words is also a big deal in the developing country like Nepal. Getting back to the time in that mission, we work hard, make people understand somehow about  the WiFi  and in turn learn to a little extent of the technical knowledge about installing WIFI, most importantly about the device we need! Rural people are the one with the heart in

fact, hospitality they provide, their contribution in making the project success  although  for the first phase was incredible indeed. “1 step foundation” a very new name of organization formulated by the group of student, completely non profitable, not political organization working in the field of community development. We were in second phase  of work in the target area Bajung, How worthy is it, when a number of students based in Kathmandu, volunteer the 1 month teaching in the remote part of the country with the goal to  get  cent percent result in SLC. Learning by doing being motto of our journey, we not only tested the device whether they can perform or not in the area, besides  identifying the range how far it can work and making those curious faces of the rural students understand somehow about the internet, Wi-Fi etc.

A piece of  wonderland(Bajung):

Those view in the eyes was actually the portray of the wonderland! symbiotic relationship between the heart and environment  with the strong bond. Apart from the busy schedule , while walking uphill,

sometime downhill, still  we can feel  the uncontaminated form of nature. Panoramic view of those huge rocks carved with the vegetation, above which the cloud is dancing and looking for a chance to fall in the earth. I pondered with the weather fluctuation there in the Bajung within the short period of time we can see the misty cloud covering those huge mountain and hill ,instantly  huge hills with distinct vegetation cover ,snow capped mountain and the small village with the scattered  house. It was like spell bounded viewing those scenic beauty. Just opposite to the Bajung, one can see the huge consolidated rock forming the Panchase hill, with the only virgin mountain “Machhpuchre”  above it. I have never expected that the journey goes beyond limitation, meditation in the top of the hill was the moment which I still love to cherish, opening the eyes I felt like I was fully motivated, I got some energy and the view in front of my eyes looks  as if I was in the wonderland, undoubtly with one and only words WOW.

 Character:

How can I refuse to accept the trip as a complete package? The moment we share during our seven days in Bajung was  mesmerizing .How can I forgot to mention the main actors of our trip Bijay Eren Sapkota,Tejaswi  Adhikari , Jhakendra  daju and those helping hands during our project. How I found Bijay was like cool, friendly, sometime moody, sometime responsible, sometime versatile, sometime yelling unnecessarily, sometime acting like stranger and importantly spiritual. I can’t deny accepting my little sister Tejaswi  as Florence Nightangle , showering the much love ,care, her passion in medicine field, sometimes talkative, chitchatting till midnight and the most common words like… like, rack….rack, tyo ,sometime moody ,a lady with the wide smile reflecting the world is smiling . 

Our legend, Pradip Adhikari, without him everything seems impossible, his effort ranging from the fund collection to coordinating the team, giving direction etc. Even though I  haven’t met him yet, my mind judge him as a dynamic, cool, dedicated, friendly, wanting changes in the society   and  a youth  with dream to change the world.I proudly insist that,the world is wanting the youth like you.Being treated as their children  by hajurbuwa and ganga aunti,  we will never gonna forget you all. . I can’t found any words to describe those Bajung people, I am indebted to them.

 I noticed the response in their own words-                                                                                                   Tejaswi- kathmandu janai mann chaina,kehi din yetai basna paye ni hunthyo with a heavy heart.      

  Bijay-Jane din ma aja etai basau na,ramailo garau,fix chaina hami feri aau6au ki audainau voli jaula ni      tah.     

                                                                                                                                                                                             

"Found Everywhere "

      Who said life is easy? If our world is easy and beautiful, nobody  would have entered it by crying. Turning those beautiful chapter having different pages  in different course of time, I had no control over emotions and circumstances. I could no longer find anything around me.

     The  time when I had first noticed the young girl instead pretending to be like a boy who was walking by my side when I was in grade school,  she was continuously complimenting her as she was like  a boy, she can do anything as boys does blah-blah and suddenly asked me am i like a girl? Reading her face and going through her spoken words, her latent wish to be a boy. The only aim of her life is to be a professional driver thinking that it is the only profession done by boys.

     Recalling the worthy past, a foggy man enjoying his life at fullest, its seems as  he was traffic having same schedule, teaching traffic rules and giving direction to the airplanes flying in the sky as per the sign by whistling.  Once he scolded me and gave one slap as  I was not following  his rules while walking in the street. They  are  like normal  human, but they do whatever they like as if life is all about having joy and spending life as a street man.

      With the heavy heart I used to notice the activities of an old women walking along the same  street  over two years. She was thin women with white hair, carrying the bag filled of dirty clothes with bare foot roaming here and there, cursing people of the same house, standing in front of the same house. How much pathetic is it? , some young boys used to rape that old women if they got the chance.

     Another an old man like a “Raute” or “jungle man”  with small piece of cloth covering the small portion of  the body. Whenever I saw him I recall the student life of grade one, where we used to read about the past civilization and about the stone age. That moment always bring smile in my face, when I gave 2 rupees to that old man, he spit in my face, scold me and throw that money back to me only because I gave very few amount to him. Even though  I used to notice him every day on the way to my college, I felt some kind of difficulty when I saw him shivering due to severe cold, trying to defend cold by smoking the pipe left in the street.

    My  pen stop writing when I remember a young boy walking in the street, begging with people for his survival. I stop for few minutes watching him continuously ,some people give slap, some feed him with food etc. Interesting thing about him is that he was continuously speaking English cursing political leader reflecting the current political condition of the country and his frustration towards the country. At the mean time when he was walking in the street, one man in the other side of the road called him and request him to come there, he replied “I am not a magnet brother”. His spoken words  were complex, I cannot understand what he is telling about? But when I deeply gone through his words, how logical answer was it?? What a rigid sentence was it? Tremendously inspired by his spoken words.

     Wherever I go ,I found the street with such people around with different activities. They do have same cranial capacity, same organs for the physiological activities but seems different with normal human? Why they are called abnormal?? It is noticed that the people are in that situation due to some happening and cause in their life. Is it the reason??,that they are passing the life and time as a street man.  Is  life beautiful for them????Always grappled with many profound question?? How much life would be worthy  if they can live the normal life!!!

   

"Journey with the Power Shift Nepal"

    It’s June 5 again, lets celebrate this environment day, honoring our mother earth and reminding everywhere, around to handle our mother earth with love and care. With the slogan “Raise your voice not the sea level” World environment day 2014 was celebrated with more than 100 power shifter from different nook and corner of the country. For me every day is environment day, but before when I entered forestry ,I didn’t found any day as special as I feel now. The fact is that, when you know something about anything you might have interest on it, when interest changes into passion it never dies up.

  How fast the time flows on, this 2.5 months with the power shift Nepal was the incredible moment indeed. On the auspicious occasion, we graduated!!! Holding certificate in not everything ,it is about designing the future action plan and bring it into action. Fighting for success is not easy, but be optimistic and truly believe you can win. Glancing back to the 2.5 months with the power shift Nepal, we were trained, given responsibility to handle the action plan and at last come out with action as well as output. Upto here knowledge walk-heritage walk, Ratna park cleaning campaign, UN park cleaning, hiking, plantation were the joint action organized by power shift Nepal. Unfortunately ,I was unable to participate on those joint activities although I am highly interested in those events most importantly heritage walk to Bhaktapur which I was looking for .I feel delighted when I saw the facebook page of GPS filled with the activities done by different group, creativity of the enthusiastic youth, promoting eco-friendly behavior, waste turned to usable thing etc.

  Making the chain of network and shifting power we are now more than 500 power shifter on the move. We not only shifted power, fun, team work ,real practice of the work in the field everything was a complete package. I sublime in absence of myself, despite of scorching sun power shifter were busy on decorating stall, some were busy in managing stall, some invest their time in describing about the stuff and their significant role in mitigating the impact of climate change. Tremendously inspired from the alternative energy (solar group) what they present about the solar cooker is innovative, simple to use and cheap.  All the while, the glorious sun pours immaculate, free energy down upon us ,more than we will ever need. In this era it  doesn’t make any sense, people are more advance, busy, can’t even wait for a single minute. Imagine, how they can wait for hours to bring it in real practice? Salute to the BEE group, eco-friendly group, their creativity expressed in comparing two different residential area was the one, that can bring the attention of every conscious mind.

   Experience sharing session was the moment, which I still love to remember. Lots of inspirational and motivational experience piled one after another .I hastily noted those sharing in my notebook. Danish one of the power shifter from the alternative energy group sharing his experience ,connected with GPS thinking as Global positioning system ponder with Global Power Shift, lastly with the best result. I sometime muddle with the slogan ”Raise your voice not the sea level” those talkative power shifter at the beginning of the training session were no more there, can’t even saw their face, outcome was beyond expectation. So, lets talk less and act more!

  Sometime we pretend that we know that what we are doing, while we still try to figure it out, considering how hard is it to change yourself and you will know what a very little chance you have to change others??Even though most of the youth are educated, they act like illiterate.We are digging our own exitinction,I feel proud to be connected with GPS, atleast we have contributed in some extent. So lets not break the step,move AHEAD powershifter!!!  

    Despite of  short time, those random moment sharing with power shifter, its is notoriously difficult to add the adjective ,Although I am trying Deepak raj sir(friendly, dedicated),Jeewan sir(cooperative)Niraj dai(hatred with the word sir,besides cool and friendly)Pratap dai(dedicated, cool),Roshni mam(smart, her fluency in English..just wow,I ponder if she has Nepali origin)Indra sir(dedicated),Ram Babu Sir(our energizer) Rajeev sir, everyone were perfect, without you all Powershift wouldn’t have been complete.We are on the begining,we have to go miles before we sleep,March ahead Powershifter!!!!!!!!!!!

    

Green Youth Convention

The mission has set, the unending journey with unstable Passion and interest we youth from the different nook and corner of the country came under one umbrella to joins hands  to paint the world green with wild flora and fauna. With enthusiastic youth from 16 districts our session starts at Amaltari, Nawalparasi. Hundreds of youth with brainstorming mind  were very warmly welcomed by the local people of that area. The area where we are going to attend the program is totally with colorful papers sticking on the rope. Local people of the Amaltari, homestay were busy in making the area attractive welcoming  guest, youth , media  person by putting tika and giving flower.

      On the 22d of april our first session starts at Amaltari homestay cultural hall. The programs starts with some rules and regulation that we need to follow during the program and followed by some documentary about wildlife and their importance in balancing the ecosystem. Then after our introduction session with the division of groups by calling 1,2,3…7.Altogether there were seven groups including youth from different background and interest. The most interesting thing was that every group need to introduce their member in creative way creating awareness among the people and motivate them in conserving biodiversity .I found youth  creative and innovative in the sense that they presented the introduction of the group member in very interesting way. Most often that the best introduction will  be honoured with some prize. As Franz Kafka said that ”Youth is happy because it has the capacity to see  beauty .Anyone who keeps the ability to shows beauty never grows old”. Like his saying youth are the one who can bring the changes and which is the lasting one. Furthermore the program is ongoing with different speech followed by documentary show .Everyone was busy in listening ,but my mind was busy in thinking about the opposition that there is big gap in between saying and implementing it in actual field.Most importantly,divided group formulated some objective and organizational structure along with the commitment in  networking the youth from grass root level.

         Turning back to the 2^nd day, the program start with the introduction about “The Generation Green” by Sikha   Gurung  followed by the motivational and inspirational speech by Anil Shah (Head of the mega bank) which can be the best example those who can’t dream their future in Nepal .Furthermore  motivational and inspirational speech by our mentor Dr.Shanta raj Gyawali, Kamal jung Kunwar(chief warden of CNP),Ranjit Acharya ,those spoken words have power but the difference is it’s very easy to pronounce words rather than bring that simple thinking in real practice. Those innocent faces of tharu society dedicating themselves to achieve the success of the program, busy in practicing the  most difficult dance(lathi dance),serving the guest in very well manner, isn’t it good deed? Learning from that is the best achievement I think .Flow line ,dream-design-discover-deliver is what we need to apply in one’s life. Undoubtly, its lead to success! Truly I admire Ravi shanker  Mardhaniya(President of Amaltari homestay) ,all his spoken words can change the world, reason is he is not only giving speech but those words  are authentic and he is practicing too. I sublimed inside me, remained  motionless as well as speechless, why we can’t do something in favor of wildlife and their habitat? With bold dream to do something  in conserving wildlife and their existence in world, the program came to an end by gathering media person from different district. Discussed about media coverage by the concerned biodiversity issues and their contribution in bringing change. Almost biding bye to the program as well as those amaltari homestay people with heavy heart and giving assurance to visit next time.

        More reflection about the program that’s come into my mind ,cultural dance by tharu community, dancing wildly in the song whatever comes next, those  creative literature, gajals, poems, sayari , etc  producing by youth and competing to present among youths etc were really the moment to cherish.Besides that, tremndously inspired from Tilak sir and synergy from  the Bhaskar sir were precious learning.   I commit to conserve biodiversity to build  the earth  green and clean, Don’t you guys?  Lets join hands to paint the earth green. CHEERS to youth, CHEERS to world!! Together WE can win!!!!!!!!!!